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Now playing: The Smiths - A Rush and a Push and the Land Is Ours
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When we met I believed that you were the one I had been waiting on, that all my failures of the past were all to lead me in your direction. I thought you felt the same; we even had an old saying remember "God loves me most". Perhaps that was a clue, we both thought alike and believed we were the favored one. I (born arrogant) felt that because I believed us to be destined that you shared the sentiment and that together we could weather any storm, Funny how things turn out. I really am trying to move on in my mind. I see our time for what it was. I tell myself this day in and day out, but alas to no avail. My heart wins out screaming your name while I sleep. I toss and turn on the couch. I can't sleep in that bed anymore. The pillows still smell like your hair even after I've washed them. I took your pictures down out of the back room the other day. I can't be in the house any longer. Everything reminds me of you. You left over half of your things here, which is a source of pain. It was like you couldn't stand being around me any longer, so much so that you had to leave half your shit and jet. I mean was I that bad. Was I so horrible that you couldn't take another moment in my awful presence? It's the most fucked up shit I have ever felt. I've had a few break ups maybe not as many as most people but that's because when I am into someone I am really into them. A personality flaw most likely but I didn't see it that way-until recently. I used to think my capacity to love came from the fact that I picked the right people to love (for the most part). Now I don't know what to do. I'm not asking anyone either so keep your advice I will figure this out. I know I've been wallowing in self pity for too long and the months of isolation have served to further my madness not improve my sanity that's for sure. I tried, I can say but all the jack asses who don't even like Star Wars will say that there is no try. Well fuck you Yoda you got a guys hand in your ass so float these nuts bitch. Sorry I like Yoda, but c'mon. Are you telling me that there is no E for effort anymore? Yeah that's what I thought…
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Now playing: The Smiths - This Night Has Opened My Eyes
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Now playing: The Smiths - A Rush and a Push and the Land Is Ours
via FoxyTunes
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