Ninety-nine and a half won't do

A few nights ago.....

I gotta fuck'n take a piss! Fuck all my bladder ain't what it used to be! Trying to zen out, defocus on the problem and recenter. Putting words on this paper....

Another new year. Soon (too soon), I will be another year older. 31 ball drops and what have I learned? I'm trying to make it to the finish line in one piece, and I've learned you can't do it without help. Family, friends, alcohol/independence is a myth. For me anyhow. I'm sure there are those out there who can do it I'm not one. Back when I was a little runt, (and my grandmother made me go to church on Sundays) I had one favorite hymn that I used to love to hear. Usually sung by my great-aunt Mosa (pronounced Moe-Sa). It went simply; “I'm running and I'm running-and I'm trying to make a hundred! Ninety-nine and a half won't do.” Repeated ad nausea, getting increasingly more exaggerated the way old negro spirituals tend to do. Not that I ever wished to live to a hundred years old. God knows my mind would have given way long before my precious body. I have been preoccupied more and more with thoughts of my general health. It may be too late but I've decided that since I've made this new commitment to share my life with someone else, that I should try to hold on a little tighter. Not that I plan on cutting back-I've already dropped my tolerance significantly over the last year. I will however try and work harder on eating better and brushing my teethe more. Possibly exercising every now and then wouldn't hurt either. I've already done a few sit-ups and push ups before work today. Got to stay on top, can't have some young buck trying to knock me out of position. You know what I mean. It's been well over a year since I slugged some one and I know my right jab may be getting rusty. Flogging Molly and Drop Kick Murphy's are coming up though. So I might get the chance soon. Bottom line is that with age comes an added pressure to remain youthful in appearance despite the bags under ones eyes and wrinkles around ones brow. Mosa lived to be 101 by the way.

Some one farted on the bus and I think I'm gonna puke!

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Now playing: Maybe Sprout Wings - The Mountain Goats
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Punk-Ass rasict white people are everywhere!

It's time to start looking harder at what it is we're doing. I ask myself constantly am I happy with th way things are? Am I content on living in this world full of shit? When do we stand up burn this shithole down so that we can start anew? I want Anarchy, and Chaos, and the streets to run red. I want freedom and fun and bombs going off. I want to feel that my life has been about something. There are people over in Germany right now fighting to make a diffrence. There are people over in Iraq right now following orders like good little Nazis. There are children in America who could care less and parents who are too paranoid from watching Fox News to do anything about anyhting. When will we stand up and say enough is enough. I don't care about Paris or Lohan, or who's on The View. I could care less about Phil Spector or George Cloony. I"m happy Scooter Libbey's going down but I doubt I'll happen. G.W. will pardon him right before he goes out. Then there immigration reform talk from a bunch of white assholes who have no ral rights to this land at all. How can you try to regulate who comes onto land that was stolen to begin with. Any talk of immigration reform is racist! I want to fight all these rightwing bastards who are trying there best to make me be afraid to let my girlfriend go to Target by herself. I want to fuck up the bastards who want to make us all suspicious of our neighbors who don't believe the same shit crap Juedo-Christian fear-mongering that the rest of the idiots running around here do. God is vengeful and wrathful and ful of shit. Zues brought down lighting bolts and so will I. I just can't understand why more people aren't snapping and unloading on the sheep to setthem free. You wonder why nobody stopped that one fucking kid at Virgina Tech. It's because they were all cowards. And so are all of you!